I see her in pain

The child out of his stupidity and innocence grabbed the running car that resulted a minor injury to his leg. His elder sister who is few years older than him saw the incident and comes home rushing, only to bring the dreadful news to the mother. She exaggerates the facts and says that his leg fell under a running car whereby he got hurt seriously. Instantly the mother gets shocked, she gets alarmed, tears falls down her soft cheek as she roughly stands up to run to the spot. As she runs forward, she sees her son there smiling to her. Her boy is in pain she knows that but the boy still smiles because he is afraid of his stupidity and he fears that his mother may beat him. But then the mother still continues to cry, may be now the reason is different, different because now she drops her tears out of contentment that her son is not injured much like she thought.

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When she gets there, I do not know the reason behind but then she started to beat him, he is already injured a little and on addition, the mother starts beating him. I wonder what she was doing. As she beats her son, I can see her in pain but I wonder what kind of pain is she having? May be she was angry at his stupidity or maybe she was happy that he isn’t injured much and out of anxiety she is beating him. Interestingly, after she beats her son, she holds his hand takes him home, makes him seat near her and she cooks his favourite dish for him. The child eats the food and forgets all his pain and in a moment, you will find him smiling again and going back to the field to play. 

The answers are all hidden in her; mothers are very difficult to understand. Their way of thinking is completely different, it is difficult for us to understand them in times but we know there love and care for us. We know how much they worry for us, we know how much boundless is their love for us, we know how important are they for us. From the moment, we are conceived in their womb they started to take care of us. As a mother, they did not let us be burned by fire, they did not let us to be washed away by rivers, and they have always been watching us with intense love and care.

P.S

I love you so much mother.

I have my Mother

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I was in my junior secondary school when I happen to have a fight with one of my colleague over a chocolate. During the course of fighting, I threw a stone size of a cricket ball on his head, which resulted in bleeding. He was instantaneously referred to hospital and then was further referred to Thimphu Referral Hospital. The issue became much more serious when principal called my parents asking them to visit him instantly. Since, dad was on tour, mummy made her way to school. The room was no better than hell, surrounded by dozens of people yelling at me incessantly, with bamboo sticks on their hands, I was there, holding my heart that was in the verge of blasting. There I saw my mother, knocking door and asking for permission to step in. she was the same women I have been since birth but then at that moment I saw her like a God, Saviour coming my way to rescue me from those evils. Mummy as always was in her traditional dress with Rachu(scarf wore by women in Bhutan), with her head lowered down to earth and she spoke in a very low tune as if like she was the one who created that havoc. Seeing my mother in that situation my heart melted in pain but poor was I for I could not do anything then to shed my tears. On the other hand, those evils were shouting at her as if it was all her fault. Nevertheless, mother was being calm and was trying her best to mediate with them but her voice went into the deaf ears. 

The talk went on until the moment when principal said, “I am going to expel your son. I cannot take this anymore; he has always been a problem. You can take her home and need not have to send him to school from tomorrow”. When she heard this, she came near me instantly, started slapping me, and was yelling on me. My Saviour became my predator and turned to a tigress. She was shouting at me on top of her voice. I closed my eyes for I was feeling ashamed of my action but suddenly the principal and teachers came for my rescue and saved me from further beating. I was stunned at that moment. Principal asked me to wait outside and my mummy was there with them in the room talking. After around couple of minutes mummy comes out of the office, holds my hand and takes me home. I could see her tears still flowing, I could hear her pain in her voice, I could see the intensity of pain in her heart but I was afraid to speak anything for I knew it was all because of me. She didn't told me anything but I knew the depth of pain she was going through then, so I promised to myself with all my heart, no matter whatsoever happens in my life, I will never make her shed tears for me again, even if I was to die I will make her smile and then I will leave.

Ever since then, I have always tried to make her proud of me, I have made all my attempts to keep her smiling, and I promise I will die in making her happy. I love you so much mummy.

Incident

Note: The incident that I am going to narrate below took place in one of the Higher Secondary school in Bhutan. I heard it from one of my best friend and I found it worth sharing.

Before going to the actual incident, I would like to give a small background of schools in my country. Schools in Bhutan, especially in remote areas are boarding schools. Since, the villages are scattered all over the place and the very fact that Bhutan is a developing country we do not have higher secondary schools for every village. As a result, students will have to go to boarding schools for their higher studies. Upon reaching school, there are some rules and regulations in the school like any other schools in the world, which you are entitled to follow strictly. In general, boarding schools in Bhutan have rules that are almost similar to one another. Some of the rules will include restriction of the students to go out of school premises without permission from the school authorities then consumption of alcohols, cigarettes, tobacco are strictly banned. Every student have to always be in uniform in the school campus and above more everyone is to practise drig-lam-nam-zha(discipline) which indeed is the top most priority. Those students who breach the rules and regulations of the school will be subject to serious disciplinary actions, which include thrashing, detention, suspension and sometimes-even termination of the student from the school.

Here I begin with the incident. It was during the one of the busy school days where some of the girls were caught drinking some kind of alcohol by the school authorities, which was a serious issue. The girls went out of school premises without any permission and came back drunk. Since, it was a serious issue; parents of the students were called upon. However, the parents of the students who were involved in drinking were a person who holds key position in the district. Nevertheless, owing to the seriousness of the act done, it made the school authorities to call the parents of those students. Meanwhile, in order to maintain the pride and fame of the school, the authorities made all the students to work, so that when those parents come to school they can see our school clean and well organised. They made the students to cut the grasses, paper picking, sweeping of the corridors, roads, drains and the students were also made to clean the hostel rooms and surroundings. The very purpose of those parents coming to school was because of their children indulging in bad activities but then to the contrary their action made all students to work. 

It is funny in some ways because the parents coming to school was not because their children has achieved something of appreciable thing but then they were called upon so that they are aware of their children’s indulgent in bad activities, so that they can give them necessary advice and to take an undertaking on behalf of their child. Nevertheless, they were welcomed like as if their children has won something great and that they are there to witness their children’s achievement. Above more, the very fact that it made other students to work for their welcome was ridiculous indeed in my own opinion.

A Written Plan

With all my heart filled with excitements, I shall get a cab and move towards CST (College of Science and Technology) to see my dear love for the first time on the second day of my arrival to Bhutan. I can feel the gentle air awaiting for my arrival, I can see those birds who have already started singing for my welcome, I can already see my love out there at the gate waiting for me with so much of love hidden in her heart. It should not take more than fifteen minutes to reach the gate, but I am damn sure those fifteen minutes will be equivalent to thousands of years.

Yet, then what should I be doing upon reaching there? What should my actions be on seeing her? Should I shake hands or should I hug her first? On the other hand, should I just say ‘hello’ without any touch? I should rather talk to her and ask her preferences before doing anything because no matter what I do, at the end of the day all I desire is to see her happy. Okay so now, the greeting ceremony is left for her to decide, I should rather plan for the next scene. Going further I should take her on a walk, upward should be the better option because downward it is the main town with so many people and all I wish is privacy. Then we shall be walking, I shall act little bold and hold her hands while we walk and talk. I will try to make her feel comfortable with cracking jokes in between our conversations because I know my love is a timid person and the very fact that we are meeting for the first time, it is likely to see her turning red like an apple. I would really love to tease her when she turns red but then I should rather try my best to comfort her and bring her to normal.

Then we should be sitting because she might get exhausted if we kept on walking. We should sit somewhere at the top of the hill because I want to make our date the most memorable one and a place to sit on the top of the hill will make it perfect. Yes, it should be at the top of hill for we can see everything from the top and I like to feel winds, which means like a love because we can feel both but can never see. Next, it will be continued by talks on our lives, on our future, on our feelings, on our togetherness and so on. But one thing that hunts me down is the idea of we being surrounded by silence, what if our conversations gets occupied by silence, what if we get out of words and what if our first date gets filled with emptiness? 

I want to make our first date a day to be remembered for rest of our lives, I won’t let such emptiness ruin our day, I will rather prepare some notes so that at the end of the day when I close my eyes for sleep I can say to myself with a satisfaction, ‘yes we did it’. It should approximately take less than two hours and then finally, we should be back on our way to gate. Upon reaching gate, I shall accompany her to her hostel and make my way back to hotel. I can feel the mixture of feelings in me. I will be happy and glad for we are meeting for the first time and the very fact that we have finally met will make my day a day to celebrate but then on the other hand, it will be very gloomy moment to leave her. Overall, I will be happy for I have now met my Wangmo.

Like any other couples I will also go for my first date with my love, like them we will also hold our hands, like them we will also get ourselves lost in the world of romance with laughter, smiles and enjoyment accompanying us. I have read in books, seen in movies and I have seen in person so called lovebirds or lovers for that matter going for their first date. I have seen them dating, sitting side-by-side, laughing with immense love, watching each other for hours and never getting bored. How lovely do they appear, oh God! I want the same thing with mine. I too have the yearning for those moments, I have waited for this moment since immemorial time, I have waited for this for I am sure god have planned this moment for me sooner or later but it is destined. Now that my plan is ready, yes my love I shall see you soon. I AM COMING MY LOVE.